Update...

As you read in the previous post, I decided to choose peace rather continue to argue about what was in the best interest of our family concerning homeschooling. Prayer, prayer and more prayer :) ! In that moment of total surrender I began to feel the peace and rest I so desired from the LORD. So after a couple of days I approached my hubby and this topic again with a different attitude. We discussed our differences, though he did not change his  mind he still feels strongly about the structure of a school system; but, we did decided since i have already purchased all the materials for this upcoming school year we would carry on with homeschool for this next year and look at it again for the next year. 


I realized what had affected me so deeply with our first conversation.....I saw it as a direct threat to my abilities. He had, in my mind, affirmed what I had already toiled with and that is...." I'm failing them". Some way some how I was not measuring up. All the things i had tried was not changing my children's behavior. 


I will continue to pray and petition the Father for wisdom and a right spirit in and through all of this. HE WILL affirm me. 

"For I know the thoughts that i think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you." ~Jeremiah 29:11-12~

homeschool or public school?

I have so enjoyed homeschooling for the past 4 years. It has been such a blessing to see and know God as I have during this time.But the question has arouse yet again in discussion with my hubby; whether to continue homeschooling or send them to a nearby public school, as we cannot afford a private christian school. 

He strongly desires for them to go to school. His reasons are noble and understanding. My heart literally is breaking even as I am typing. I long to shape my children's world and guide their filtering processes through the word and personhood of God the Father. But I cannot ignore a very real desire of my husband's. So, as painfully as this is for me; I am going to wave my white flag.

So, Please be in prayer and intercession for me and my family as we step into a journey that deeply breaks my heart. Though this is but one element of motherhood and homemaking; it is a very rooted area for me.

~"Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you."~ 2 Corinthians 13:11


~"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."~Ecclesiastes 3:1


~"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; And lean not on your own understanding...."~Proverbs 3:5


~"So there is HOPE for your future, declares the LORD. Your children will return to their own land."~ Jeremiah 31:17

An eye opening book

I purchased this book sometime last summer. I was so excited when it came in the mail. I began reading it and then got very side tracked. Being a mother of four, homeschooling, a wife and homemaking; it gets to be a little overwhelming. But Thank God that He never gives up and is always there to softly guide us back to where He desires for us to be.
   Gary Thomas has a unique way of revealing the truth with practical application thats biblical!!! He does not cover up or dress it up. He is a bold author, who writes under the unction of the Holy Spirit.  The Beautiful Fight, is an amazing eye opening read that challenges you to hear and see the the Father through a more proper lens so that you can more effectively walk out the Christ-life. It has not ceased to speak directly to my heart. Oh, to know the Father in such a way and to continually draw closer to HIM is my hearts desire.

"The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. The Sovereign LORD has opened my ears, I have not drawn back." 

Isaiah 50:4-5

"The more I live this way, the more my heart sings with Paul when he calls 

Christianity a beautiful fight, " the only race worth running"(2 Timothy 4:7 MSG) -excerpt  from The Beautiful Fight by Gary Thomas, p.129.

Good Morning Girls

So very excited to  be joining a group of wonderful ladies. 

Challenging one another ( iron sharpening iron).

Blessing one another daily!

• Psalm 127:1
• John 15:4-5
• Matthew 6:33
• 2 Timothy 1:5
• Proverbs 6:20-22

~Be Blessed~

"Then you will know that I AM the LORD; those who hope in me will not be disappointed"

~Isaiah 49:23~

Moments that Overwhelm...

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."~Romans15:13

I love and cherish the moments that overwhelm me. I want to fall to my knees and praise HIS name. I do mean "overwhelm" in a very good way. In a way that I know that I know it's HIM. It has such an anointing that takes me immediately to that safe dwelling in your presence. Oh, the peace and joy that I find there. I could live there. No, I want to live there. In full acknowledgement of who He is. To be right in the face of the Father.There is a level of comfort that blesses my soul all the way to the core.That smooth, rich sap that covers from the top of my head to the souls of my feet. I thank you Lord for such a blessing! Things simply can't measure up. I can do it now. This is the much needed out pouring of strength to continue on this journey that you've(my God) called me to. My heart has been encouraged. IT has been strengthened. I am enjoying such a great reward. This life you've called me to is reward in itself. Thank you for drawing near to me and exposing your heart. A glimpse at your face is worth the journey.

"You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence

with eternal pleasures at your right hand." ~Psalm 16:11

"......so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus,

 to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."~Acts 20:24

"Show the wonder of your great love, you who save by your right hand 

those who take refuge in you." ~Psalm 17:7