Update...

As you read in the previous post, I decided to choose peace rather continue to argue about what was in the best interest of our family concerning homeschooling. Prayer, prayer and more prayer :) ! In that moment of total surrender I began to feel the peace and rest I so desired from the LORD. So after a couple of days I approached my hubby and this topic again with a different attitude. We discussed our differences, though he did not change his  mind he still feels strongly about the structure of a school system; but, we did decided since i have already purchased all the materials for this upcoming school year we would carry on with homeschool for this next year and look at it again for the next year. 


I realized what had affected me so deeply with our first conversation.....I saw it as a direct threat to my abilities. He had, in my mind, affirmed what I had already toiled with and that is...." I'm failing them". Some way some how I was not measuring up. All the things i had tried was not changing my children's behavior. 


I will continue to pray and petition the Father for wisdom and a right spirit in and through all of this. HE WILL affirm me. 

"For I know the thoughts that i think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you." ~Jeremiah 29:11-12~

homeschool or public school?

I have so enjoyed homeschooling for the past 4 years. It has been such a blessing to see and know God as I have during this time.But the question has arouse yet again in discussion with my hubby; whether to continue homeschooling or send them to a nearby public school, as we cannot afford a private christian school. 

He strongly desires for them to go to school. His reasons are noble and understanding. My heart literally is breaking even as I am typing. I long to shape my children's world and guide their filtering processes through the word and personhood of God the Father. But I cannot ignore a very real desire of my husband's. So, as painfully as this is for me; I am going to wave my white flag.

So, Please be in prayer and intercession for me and my family as we step into a journey that deeply breaks my heart. Though this is but one element of motherhood and homemaking; it is a very rooted area for me.

~"Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you."~ 2 Corinthians 13:11


~"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."~Ecclesiastes 3:1


~"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; And lean not on your own understanding...."~Proverbs 3:5


~"So there is HOPE for your future, declares the LORD. Your children will return to their own land."~ Jeremiah 31:17

Hope....

"....there is a faith and love that spring from the hope that is stored up for you in heaven"

Colossians 1:5

There is such great joy in knowing that the much needed faith and love literally comes from the hope that Christ

has stored up for me. It is not something that I have to work toward to obtain. Now let me clarify that "work" to me was me trying to be approved by God. Not so!! 

Praise God, that He is setting me free from 

approval addiction (more in the coming days on this liberation).We do need to take steps in obedience to exercise that faith.

 Now we know that it is an everlasting hope, whose flame can not be burned out. There is always room for hope :) ! 

No matter the storm or the circumstance hope will get us to the next step and the next step. 

It helps me to remember that God is 

always in control and He working it out for my good. 

I love it ;) ! 

In Galatians , Paul writes, "It is for freedoms sake that Christ set us free." I am finding such a freedom in allowing God to cultivate my faith and make me a channel of love for those around me.

"Then you will know that I am the Lord; those who hope in me will not be disappointed."

Isaiah 49:23

You show that you are a letter from Christ.....

I have pondered on this topic for some days now. There is such a beauty that comes with that. I am learning that beauty comes from the spirit within. I have journeyed through so much along this walk but I have learned to place my trust in him. This was not an easy decision initially with me filtering things through my past experiences. But God, in all His gentleness drew me to this special place. Where He began to teach me so much about Him and I drew closer to Him. I dive into His presence now and enjoy it. 

"You show that you are a letter from Christ, .....written not with ink but with the spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts."

2 Corinthians 3:3