Desiring gentleness.....

"Rather, it should be that of your inner self,the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight." 1 Peter 3:4

As a mother, I long for a gentle and quiet spirit. To be quick to listen and slow to speak. So much of the time  I find myself reacting to my little ones instead of giving a gentle response. I want them to know how precious they are to the Lord and how special they are to me. 

Does my actions, words and attitude paint them a picture of how much God loves them?

When I allow my focus to be on the many cares of this life; I find myself a little more snappish and short. Rather, the Lord desires and is greatly moved by a woman with a gentle spirit. I think it is a direct reflection of HIM. A very loving God.

Let us begin to be very aware that God is with us and desires to pour on us a gentleness of spirit and character. And for this very trait to be passed on to our children, whom we desire to train up in the admonition of the Lord. Believe me, they are much more receptive this way.

"The Lord's servant must not quarrel, but must be gentle to everyone, able to teach, and patient, instructing his opponents with gentleness. Perhaps God will grant them repentance leading them to the knowledge of the truth." 2 Timothy 2:24-25

Prayerfully seeking God...

Wow...I can't believe it has been this long since I have posted here. Time simply continues to press on no matter what we say about it, right :)
There has been so many things weighing heavily on my heart lately...I have to say I am just prayerfully seeking the Father for direction. No matter what.... I have decided to dive into the things of God and take every necessary step that He calls me to. This pushes me out of my box.

Have you ever felt like you just want/need to draw close to HIM?

There is a point that goes beyond just a day to day seeking; it's a desperation for more of HIM!

"Let me experience Your faithful love in the morning, for I trust in You. Reveal to me the way I should go because I long for You." Psalm 143:8

God has been so faithful to me. I can't begin to express the magnitude. Yet there is a longing in my spirit for more. Another verse that has been ringing in my spirit is this:

"Awake, my soul! Awake, harp and lyre! I will awaken the dawn." Psalm 57:8

I don't fully know where He is leading me on this journey but I know He is with me on it. In the days to come I will be in continual prayer. I ask you to come along with me? On this journey of prayer; a deeper longing for more of Him?

His Presence...

"If your presence does not go,.....Don't make us go up from here." Exodus 33:15

I have longed for His presence lately, more than usual. I realized that this truly is my hearts desire, that I be in His presence. For a long time I wanted to just be good on the outside....you know having right words, the right modest attire, well behaved kids.....having a godly appearance. Don't misunderstand me, I wanted the ways of the Lord.In doing all those things, I thought, I must be pleasing the Father which meant I belonged to Him. First let me say, If you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you belong to Him ; therefore being declared righteous by faith, we have peace with God (Romans 5:1). 

You see in the passage of scripture above, Moses realized that there was nothing of greater value than to have the presence of God with him. Being able to talk with God and know Him. He would rather stay in the wilderness  and have the presence of God, than to go to a land of continual riches and the best of all things good. God told Moses in Exodus 33 that He would send an angel with him and that He would fulfill his promise to the children of Israel only He was not going up with a stiff-necked people.

And Moses essentially said, 
No, please don't tell me to go without you, Lord! 

How often do we just go through the motions of a christian life doing good things, accomplishing much but not seeking His presence?Maybe we say a quick prayer and read a verse here or there; but never have enough time to actually enter in.What if we make it to church on time every Sunday and leave, not being moved with compassion? What if  our prayers slowly become more and more about making our lives a little bit easier and better; leaving out the widowed, the orphaned, and the sick?

"How will it be known that I and Your people have found favor in Your sight unless You go with us?" Exodus 33:16

I am learning that even in my vain attempt to walk this thing out right; I missed a vital part of the journey.
That is to know HIM.
 And not just to know Him, having only a head knowledge, but to know Him presence to presence.To begin to take on the very heart of God. Realizing that He has called us all to enter behind the veil.

Desiring Him...

Blessed is she who chooses the way of the Lord.

Who desires to walk uprightly before the Lord.

I AM will surely deliver her. 

Let Him bring her up who calls on the name of the most High.

Let Him set her on His firm foundation.

Speaking only what He has given her.

Blessed is the woman who hides His truth in her heart, for 

He cannot be squelched!

He will bear her up above all. 

He will pave the righteous way.

He will be your freedom, your strong arm.

Fearing nothing, press pass human nature until you arrive

at heaven's door.

Kneel down, breaking the jar of all that's within, at HIS foot.

Pour it out my daughters. For what He gives is of greater value.

Trust in Him who desires your heart. 

For He is freedom.

"It is the Spirit who gives life; the flesh profits nothing. The words that I speak to you are Spirit, and they are life." ~John 6:63~

Blessed am I

 Blessed is the one who place their trust and hope in the Lord. For he will see the face of my great Lord.

You will see the fullness of His mighty Glory.

Blessed is her who continually seeks the face of her Lord for she will hear His heartbeat.

Blessed am I, for He has chosen to delight Himself with me. 

Blessed am I for my Lord has come again to reside with me, to cloth me, not with filthy rags but with

His precious attire.

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. 

I love you, Lord!

More than my finite being can comprehend.

How I desire to be filled again and poured out as a drink offering.

Blessed am I for my sins have been forgiven.

Thank you, Lord!

My heart rejoices bountifully in the Grace of my God!

How I've delighted myself in His sweet mercies!

Peace sweeps over me as I take on the posture of complete reverence.

Thank you, my LORD!

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

You show that you are a letter from Christ.....

I have pondered on this topic for some days now. There is such a beauty that comes with that. I am learning that beauty comes from the spirit within. I have journeyed through so much along this walk but I have learned to place my trust in him. This was not an easy decision initially with me filtering things through my past experiences. But God, in all His gentleness drew me to this special place. Where He began to teach me so much about Him and I drew closer to Him. I dive into His presence now and enjoy it. 

"You show that you are a letter from Christ, .....written not with ink but with the spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts."

2 Corinthians 3:3