Give me ears to hear.......

"A house and wealth are inherited from fathers, 

but a sensible wife is from the LORD." 

Proverbs 19:14

Being a wife brings about so many aspects of womanhood, but the one that rings loudly to me is dying to self. So much of the time I find myself saying," I want it to be about me today, Lord!" Yet the computer wins out every time. It (the computer) greets my hubby on quick lunch breaks and after work most days; and last night I decided that I was fed up with it. It's not like the computer can make his lunch and dinner :) So I walk up stairs fuming,and I plopped down into bed and picked up my book with force and began reading.  And God began to speak to my spirit "pay attention." It was not harsh, though that is just what I deserved with my behavior, though it was inward actions. 

   I opened "The Beautiful Fight" by Gary Thomas, and began reading where I had left off. Here He is writing a letter of encouragement to his daughter's dance instructor........

                                    ......The way you love your husband, respect him, honor him, and live with him

                               will be seen by so many future wives. The way you talk about him, 
the way they see you treat him, could have profound influence. So it only makes sense that 

   this could be an area of attack. Every marriage 

has seasons-the on-the-mountaintop seasons, 

the difficult seasons,and even just the tired seasons-where two people 

can slowly drift from each other without even knowing it. I

 obviously don't have any idea what season your marriage is in, 

but as a brother I encourage you to continue to move toward your

 husband, to pray to God about your heart for him, and to ask 

God to renew your love and devotion. (The beautiful fight, pg.78)

My eyes began to tear up because I knew it was God speaking directly through this passage to my heart. And I thank God for giving me ears to hear him speak and eyes to see HIS heart for me.

You see, God has called wives to love their husbands in many of the same ways that we love our LORD. He, the Lord , created us for relationship and through further prayer last night; I realized that was the sore spot for me. In yet another eye opening experience, God says, "that is what I desire also". HE showed me through my heart wrenching desire for time spent with my husband that HE desires relationship with me more than any sacrifice, gift or action.

So in all our doing.....Let it be to cultivate relationship and our heart response be out of the relationship we have with our LORD!

"The one who pursues righteousness and faithful love will find life, righteousness, and honor."~ Proverbs 21:21